Devotional “Dangerous Prayers” 7-12-20

Disturb Me

What we pray about is important. But not only is it important, it’s also revealing. 

The content of our prayers tells us more about us and our relationship with God than most people might imagine. What we pray for reflects what we believe about God. If most of our prayers are for “ourselves” or “what matters to us,” then the content of our prayers communicates that we believe, deep down, that God exists primarily for us.

So take a moment and do a prayer audit. Think about everything you prayed for recently—not your whole lifetime, just the past seven days. Consider writing on a notepad or typing a memo on your phone and listing all the different things you petitioned God to do in the last week. Take a moment and give it some thought. Do you remember? What did you pray about? What did you ask God to do? 

Now answer honestly. If God said yes to every prayer you prayed in the last seven days, how would the world be different? 

If your prayers were the normal, safe ones, then maybe you would have had a good day, arrived safely, or enjoyed a blessed double cheeseburger, fries, and Diet Coke.

For years, if I did a prayer audit, the results would have been dismal. If God had done everything over a week’s period that I had asked him to do, the world wouldn’t have been much different at all. Honestly, some weeks I wouldn’t have prayed for anything. Other weeks, I might have prayed, but the prayers were all about me, and that doesn’t change much in the grand scheme of things.

My prayers were too safe.

I had access to the Creator and Sustainer of the universe. The Great I am. The Alpha and the Omega. The Beginning and the End. The all-powerful, ever-present, all-knowing God who can send fire from heaven, shut the mouths of hungry lions, or calm a raging storm. And all I asked him to do was keep me safe and help me have a good day.

For years, I never wanted to be interrupted. But after praying more dangerous prayers, I discovered that God’s gentle promptings would regularly interrupt my self-centered plans and he would direct me toward his eternal will.

My faith is stronger.

My life is richer.

My heart is fuller.

Think about what could be different if you prayed with more transparency. If you risked more. If you were more open to what God might do in you instead of just hoping he will do something for you. What if you prayed bolder prayers? Dreamed bigger? Recklessly pursued Jesus with daring, self-abandoned faith?

It’s time to change the way you pray. It’s time to abandon safe, comfortable, predictable, and easy-to-pray prayers. It’s time to pray with courage, to risk, to open yourself up to a different path to a better destination. It’s time to start praying dangerous prayers. It’s time to be disturbed.

If you truly want to make a difference on earth, you need power from heaven. If you want your life to matter, it’s time to pray big, bold, audacious prayers. 

Seek God and dream big. Refuse to fear failure. It’s time to venture out. To trust. To dare. To believe. Your life won’t always feel safe. And it will take faith. But without faith, it’s impossible to please God.

What are you waiting for?

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For all you mask wearers (especially those of you who think wearing it outside is NOT stupid 🤦🏼‍♀️). I know I’m about to burst your “google doctor degree” bubble, but here goes nothing.

So Masks?
I am OSHA 10&30 certified. I know some of you are too. I don’t really know WHY OSHA hasn’t come forward and stopped the nonsense BUT I want to cover 3 things
• N95 masks and masks with exhale ports
• surgical masks
• filter or cloth masks
Okay, so upon further inspection, OSHA says some masks are okay and not okay in certain situations.
If you’re working with fumes and aerosol chemicals and you give your employees the wrong masks and they get sick, you can be sued.

• N95 masks: are designed for CONTAMINATED environments. That means when you exhale through N95 the design is that you are exhaling into contamination. The exhale from N95 masks are vented to breath straight out without filtration. They don’t filter the air on the way out. They don’t need to.
Conclusion: if you’re in Target and the guy with Covid has a N95 mask, his covid breath is unfiltered being exhaled into Target (because it was designed for already contaminated environments, it’s not filtering your air on the way out).

• Surgical Mask: these masks were designed and approved for STERILE environments. The amount of particles and contaminants in the outside and indoor environments where people are CLOGGING these masks very, VERY quickly. The moisture from your breath combined with the clogged mask will render it “useless” IF you come in contact with Covid and your mask traps it, YOU become a walking virus dispenser. Everytime you put your mask on you are breathing the germs from EVERYWHERE you went. They should be changed or thrown out every “20-30 minutes in a non sterile environment.”

• Cloth masks: I can’t even believe I’m having to explain this, but here it goes. Today, three people pointed to their masks as they walked by me entering Lowe’s. They said “ya gotta wear your mask BRO” I said very clearly “those masks don’t work bro, in fact they MAKE you sicker” they “pshh’d” me. By now hopefully you all know CLOTH masks do not filter anything. You mean the American flag one my aunt made? Yes. The one with sunflowers that looks so cute? Yes. The bandanna, the cut up t-shirt, the scarf ALL of them offer NO FILTERING whatsoever. As you exhale, you are ridding your lungs of contaminants and carbon dioxide. Cloth masks trap this carbon dioxide the best. It actually risks your health, rather than protect it. The moisture caught in these masks can become mildew ridden over night. Dry coughing, enhanced allergies, sore throat are all symptoms of a micro-mold in your mask.

-Ultimate Answer:
*N95 blows the virus into the air from a contaminated person.
*The surgical mask is not designed for the outside world and will not filter the virus upon inhaling through it. It’s filtration works on the exhale, (Like a vacuum bag, it only works one way) but likely stops after 20 minutes, rendering it useless outside of a STERILE ENVIRONMENT (correct Becky, they don’t work in a bar, not even a little bit).
*Cloth masks are WORSE than none. It’s equivalent to using a chain link fence to stop mosquitos.

The CDC wants us to keep wearing masks. The masks don’t work. They’re being used to provide false comfort and push forward a specific agenda. For the love of God, research each mask’s designed use and purpose, I bet you will find NONE are used in the way of “viral defense.”

Just like EVERY Flu season kids, wash your hands. Sanitize your hands. Don’t touch stuff. Sanitize your phone. Don’t touch people. And keep your distance. Why? Because your breath stinks, your deodorant is failing, your shoes are old and stink, that shirts not clean, & I like my space. Trust me I can hear you from here. Lots of reasons to keep your distance and work on body hygiene. But trust me, the masks do not work.

*Occupational Safety & Hazard Association sited.
The top American organization for safety.
They regulate and educate asbestos workers, surgical rooms, you name it.
I know, facts suck. They throw a wrench into the perfectly (seeming) packaged pill you are willingly swallowing. Facts make you have to form your OWN OPINION, instead of regurgitating someone else’s, and I know how uncomfortable that makes a lot of you. If your mask gives you security, by all means wear it. Just know it is a false sense of security and you shouldn’t shame anyone into partaking in such “conspiracies.”

July 3, 2020 Devotional

Free Looks Good On You by Christy Johnson

Did your parents ever tell you to watch your mouth? As a young girl, whenever I complained my mother’s voice rose a few octaves as she warned, “Christine, don’t give me any lip! You’d better watch your mouth!”

I knew it was time to shape up when she used my full name.

My mom wasn’t a Bible student, but if she had been, she’d have realized she was teaching me a spiritual principle. 

Before a word is formed on our tongue, it’s first a thought in our mind. Believe it or not, we get to choose what thoughts we allow ourselves to think about. You’ve no doubt heard the saying, you are what you eat. The same is true with your thoughts: you are what you think.

Remember the castle illustration I used in the fifth devotional when I asked you to think of your soul as a castle? Your mind is like the door to your palace. Only you can decide what thoughts or meditations you allow inside. You also decide what meditations are not allowed to come in. 

When negative thoughts try to invade your castle and influence your emotions, you have the responsibility to kick them out. If a robber rang your doorbell and asked if he could come in and steal all of your valuables, you’d slam the door in his face, bolt it shut, and call 911. And yet when harmful thoughts try to rob our valuable peace, we often open the door and welcome them in. We may even offer them coffee and say, “Sit down for a while, and let’s talk.”

I have a speakeasy on the front door of my house—a small-latched opening that allows me to talk to a person ringing the bell without opening the door. It’s very useful because I can keep the door shut and locked while I decide if I want to allow the person to come in. Just because someone rings the doorbell doesn’t obligate me to welcome them inside. That’s the way we should deal with our thoughts. 

Satan’s battleground is your mind. His brand of deception combines a lethal lie with a dash of truth. That way, a lie doesn’t really sound like a lie. A lure of self-pity seems reasonable. The bait of bitterness seems justified. He makes pride seem like confidence and insecurity seem like humility. The list goes on. He twists and tweaks the truth, but if he can penetrate your brain, he can pollute your thought life. 

Make a choice daily to free your mind of toxic thinking. Refuse to entertain thoughts that contradict what God’s word says about you!

July 1, 2020 Devotional

Free Looks Good On You by Christy Johnson

Can you imagine a house without windows? Sunshine would never have a chance to dance through your curtains in the morning and kiss you hello. Gentle breezes would never be able to deliver fresh air. And without a way to look outside, how would you ever know if someone was trying to get in? Every house needs a way to look outside. Windows give us access to what is going on around us. Windows allow us to see beyond the perimeter of our property. But we also have to know when to keep them locked to protect ourselves against unwelcome intruders. Since you are the dwelling place of God, I’d like you to think of your soul as a castle. You’re the princess, but you have an enemy—the devil, and he’s out to kill. From the day you were born he studies you. He wants to find out where you’re weak and vulnerable in order to destroy your future. He’s afraid that you might find out how powerful you are. Satan attacks in infancy what he fears in maturity.The plan he creates to crush you is tailor-made for you. He knows what makes you mad and he knows the best way to accomplish his goal. Bank robbers study blueprints to plan their robbery. Military strategists create detailed plans to infiltrate their enemy’s property. Football coaches study their opponents. They watch videos and frame-by-frame in slow motion, they develop a game plan to overpower their rival. And guess what? You’re no different. The enemy hates you. If you don’t know where you’re vulnerable, how will you be able to protect yourself? How will you guard the castle of your soul from offenses created to consume you? The transgressions Satan crafts for your friend may not anger you. The way he invades her fortress may be different than the scheme he’s created to assault you. That’s because we all have unique vulnerabilities based on our personalities, callings, maturity, and life experiences. The enemy loves it when we have no clue how he keeps getting inside. He likes naïve princesses with unguarded castles. If you can’t see where the enemy slitters in, he’ll keep coming back in the same way. He won’t stop until his plot no longer works. You’ve got to be smarter than he is. We all have weaknesses, but it’s foolish to leave them unguarded. The enemy loves it when we’re blind to the ways he tries to keep us bound in bitterness. It’s time to put an end to his plan!Take a moment to reflect on what most triggers your anger. Then ask the Lord how you can protect yourself against the enemy’s plot to destroy your soul and steal your joy.


Emotions suck sometimes! Being the type of person I am, I can’t stop tears when I’m angry, hurt, sad, overjoyed, etc… I also can’t seem to stop the emotional eating crevice I fall into when my soul aches. I’ve been working so hard to be better, do better, and live healthier and yet I continue to let one person ruin things for me.

I absolutely despise who I am right now. I feel the depression and anxiety, the self-doubt and the self-loathing coming through again. I worked to learn to start loving myself and I worked hard at it, so why do I allow the digs and the meanness chip that away so the darkness seeps in again?

Hate is a very strong word, but I’m beyond that even – I loathe this situation, every single part of it. And with this stupid, hyped up pandemic crap, I can’t even get out of it!

So I do what I swore I’d never do again and I put on a mask and go about my day, only allowing those masks to crumble around a few or in the dark solitude of my room. I’m tired of crying. I wish my mom and Jackie were here so I had their wisdom- it was always the best!


Journal Prompt #9

What do you feel is your mission for your life?

This is a tough one. I think it actually changes with experience and wisdom. For example, when I was younger, I thought the purpose for my life was to just be everyone’s friend. I now realize that has transcended into empathy.

Then I believed that my mission in life was taking care of everyone and everything. I now realize this has transcended into compassion.

At one point, I thought my mission was going to be seeking justice for others and teaching them how to change. Now I realize that has transcended into just doing my best to be God’s hands and feet and making myself available to others.

So I guess what I’ve come to learn over the last year is that my mission in life is to just listen to what God wants of me and to do my best, through Him, to be empathetic, compassionate, loving, friendly, fair, caring, and a steward of His grace.


You know, there was a time in my life where some of the women I was closest to, would put me down and make me doubt my worth. It was as a young girl, my self-esteem began to dwindle.

Then, there were the bullies in school to continue on with me learning to hate myself. And the worst of the worst came from the man I married, not once, but twice.

Once I finally realized that I wasn’t quite as worthless or ugly or whatever…as they had all had me believing, I started to gain back some confidence.

That’s why this week hit me between the eyes, a gut punch that set me back years…at the age of 45, someone hurt me so deeply with his words that I don’t even like leaving my house now. I don’t want to have to see this person or even interact with him any longer. The bits and pieces of me that I was getting back, well he shattered a few of them, to be honest. And I hate, absolutely hate, that this one person had such an impact because he doesn’t deserve it.

I will continue my interaction with him because I have no choice, but they will be limited and I won’t let my guard down again. And when the day comes that I walk away from that kind of poison, I will hold my head high and not look back.


Journal Prompt 8.

What is one of your weaknesses that is actually a strength?

I always believed, and was told, that my soft heart and emotions made me weak. Therefore, my biggest weakness. However, now that I’m an adult who sort of, kind of, loves herself (hush up, I’m learning), I’ve come to realize that my tender heart and empathy are a great strength.

Why do I believe this? I know, without a doubt in my mind, that the tribe I have now is a gift from God and fits into my life for a reason. We, the empaths and the strong-willed, compliment each other and we are blessed beyond comprehension because of it.

My heart is pure and my friendship is true. I love with all that is within me, I feel your hurts and your joys, and I’ll forever be your biggest cheerleader because of how your soul connects with mine. This, my friends, is why my biggest weakness has become my biggest strength.


Journal prompt #7

What is something you want to do but fear failing at? Would you accept a challenge to try anyways??

I want so badly to be an author. I have a kids book written, and a friend who is willing to illustrate it. But I don’t know how to go about getting published without it costing me a fortune. And I don’t just want to write for kids.

I’m always up for a challenge and think that we should all be open-minded enough to step out of our comfort zones and at least try something new! Plus, I’m not usually one to back down from a challenge!


Journal Prompt #6

How do you handle change?

In all honesty, I think it depends on what the change is. For example, we change things at work all the time and I’m pretty go-with-the-flow. I may have to make a lot of notes until it becomes a routine, because let’s face it, my mind is aging a bit…but that kind of change is good.

As for how I handle the change of losing those I love, be it relocation or death, I struggle pretty hard. Changes within my circle or tribe hurt me deeply even if I am happy for the one who is bettering themselves be it a new home, career, or eternal life.

The changes that are going on in our world right now, I think we will find a rainbow to come out at the end, but I get frustrated by those who make this entire experience into a joke. So I am currently struggling with a lot of emotions as I had noted in a previous journal prompt. However, I still believe God has this all under control and all I can do is pray about it and do my part to the best of my ability.